I noticed I didn't post any message yesterday. Clearly, I had nothing to say in the morning and that situation didn't change during the day. I've always thought of this blog as being a daily journal and that's fine if we're travelling somewhere like Nepal and every day brings a new experience, but, when you're living in a nondescript suburb of a small city in Tasmania, reportable experiences are hard to find.
Anyway, that's my excuse, and I'm sticking to it. Here's the story I would have posted yesterday if I had bothered to write a blog. It's called Suzanne.
SUZANNE 26
MARCH 2021
Suzanne was the only person she knew who had that name and she never
understood what her mother was thinking when she decided to inflict her only
daughter with such an unusual appellation. It was unlikely her
mother had read it because she couldn’t read so she must have overheard it
somewhere. It may have been part of some obscure hope that people
with influence might be impressed with the name and give Suzanne special
attention.
One never knew with Suzanne’s mother; she may have lacked education but
she was cunning and was forever thinking of ways that her daughter could have
more opportunities than she, herself, had enjoyed.
Suzanne never went to school because her family would have been expected
to pay a shilling a week for the privilege, and there was never a shilling to
spare for such frivolity. Instead, she occasionally visited the
local Church minister along with half a dozen other under-privileged children
for some basic tuition in reading and writing.
When Suzanne was twelve years old, her mother died and her father said
it was time that Suzanne contributed to the family income. He had
arranged for her to meet the housekeeper at the Big House and warned her to be
polite and say, “Yes, ma’am” and “No, ma’am”
With her heart in her mouth, Suzanne dragged her heels through the town
and up the long driveway to the Big House. She had never been close
to the house before and couldn’t understand why just one family would need so
much room. Her own house only had two rooms and everybody in the
street shared one lavatory. She had been warned not to go to the
front door so made her way to the back and timidly knocked. The door
was opened by the grandest individual Suzanne had ever seen: he was tall with
glossy dark hair and an immaculate uniform. “Yes?” he
enquired. Suzanne was speechless but the man beckoned her inside and
pushed her along a corridor to a little room where she could see, sitting
there, a severe-looking woman dressed all in black.
This was the housekeeper, who said, “You must be the girl who needs a
job. What is your name?”
“Please, ma’am, it’s Suzanne.”
“That’s a most unsuitable name for a servant. We will call
you Susan. You may call me Mrs Hodges.” You will begin
work here as a scullery maid and, if you are satisfactory, you may be selected
to become a chamber maid. You will work from 6 o’clock each morning
and you will be allowed one afternoon off each week. Because you are
just twelve years old, your wages will be paid to your father. Report to Cook
who will find you more suitable clothes and explain your duties.”
From that moment, Suzanne’s life changed forever. Vaguely,
she had thought that she might marry and have a small home of their own where
she could bring up her own children.
Instead, her own dreams had to be set aside and all her energies and
attention must now be on fulfilling the desires of the members of the wealthy
family who owned the Big House. Susan (as she now must call herself)
didn’t even know the name of the family who owned the house and how they had
come to own it. Were they aristocrats, or did they make their money
some other way? Susan knew that ‘real’ aristocrats looked down on
people who were making their money ‘in trade’ and she hoped her new employers
were not members of that grubby bunch.
Days passed and Susan’s life fell into a dull but reassuring
routine. There was one other scullery maid, a cheerful girl called
Beryl who took Susan under her wing and helped her through the difficult early
days. Mrs Hodges was strict but was seldom seen by the younger staff
who worked assiduously to keep out of her way. There were a couple
of boys on the staff about Susan’s age and she enjoyed their cheeky
banter. She shared a bed with Beryl but the sheets were always clean
and the food from the kitchen was more than she expected. The best
part of her day was when all the staff sat together around the large table in
the kitchen for their evening meal. Her life might have improved if she had a
little money to spend on her afternoon-off but it was all given to her father
who never thought to pass any on to her.
Susan, if she thought about it, would have agreed that her life was
surprisingly happy. Certainly, she was working hard and had very
little free time but she enjoyed the friendship of the other servants and Beryl
was almost like a sister. Also, one of the young men who worked in
the coach house was showing an interest in her and they were walking out
together on their afternoon off.
We can only imagine how Susan’s life might have evolved but, sadly, she
died in the 1918 Spanish Flu epidemic. To his credit, her father
insisted that her headstone should show her true name, and it is still there in
the churchyard of her village. Her young man visited her grave for a
time but finally realised he needed to get on with his life and his visits
ceased. Suzanne is now all but forgotten, just a girl with a slightly
exotic name who trod lightly on the earth.